..the smell of alcohol (both the wipes and the drinks), brushing my teeth, drinking anything, the smell of pizza, the smell of cleaning products, the smell of me!, the thought of most food, the thought of entering the hospital again for treatment...Seriously, these things (and more) all make me feel sick...so I'm going to stop writing about them now...
The last couple of days have been ones that I am willing to forget. In fact, I don't really remember them because I have spent their majority in bed, asleep. The nausea medicine seems to wear off on the 4th day, but the nausea does not. Unfortunately, I have a problem swallowing pills (suprisingly...the thought of even doing so makes me nauseous ;))...so I haven't taken anything. I figure nausea is better than actually throwing up (which I will do if I try to take a pill...experience has taught me this!)
As for the rest of this treatement, the first three days went well. I was able to go for walks and see some friends between naps. It was great...and I'm a sucker for distraction! Yesterday, however, I barely got out of bed. It was easier to sleep through feeling sick, I suppose. At 7pm, my mom and I decided it necessary to get out of the house. So we drove 10 minutes to Starbucks (all part of her master plan to get me to drink more)...however, I couldn't even drink my hot chocolate...so sad...and such a waste! It was good to get out of the house though...and we found some warm Dr. Pepper on our journey that hit the spot!
The doctors also gave me an extra shot this week of neulasta (I think...I forgot to ask)...anyway, this shot is supposed to help boost my white blood cells...since my body doesn't want to do this on its own! This will hopefully help my treatments stay on track. It is supposed to cause pain in my long bones (legs, sternum) as it stimulates the marrow there to start making cells. However, no real pain yet....not sure if thats good or bad...
Overall, the forth treatment was okay...better than the third. I spent most of the third treatment just pissed off at this whole experience, as the 'newness' had worn off. I think the extra week off helped my state of mind, and reinforced the fact that when this is over it won't take long for me to feel better!
Well...I hope everyone is doing well and was able to enjoy this great fall weekend! Congrats to Alison for finishing the 26.2 mile walk to support the Jimmy Fund today!