Monday, December 31, 2007
DONE!
Happy New Year Everyone!
(ps...I'll write more tomorrow after some more time to process...)
Sunday, December 30, 2007
A Good Week..
My brothers and I had a Salsa-off on Christmas day. My parents were very generous and fair with their judging, however....I think I won (mine's in the middle.....)
Molly Santa...
The only medical complication this week was a rather embarrassing one. I was eating an apple at work and cut the top of my mouth which would not stop bleeding! After saturating about 4 washclothes with blood and about 20 minutes of bleeding...the nurses that I was eating with decided that action needed to be taken! One was on the phone with the clinic, and the other was getting me wheelchair to wheel me down (which I politely refused!) I did go to the clinic and, of course, the bleeding stopped when I got there! They drew some labs, and I didn't hear anything, so I assume all is well. I just was informed to eat a soft diet for awhile so I don't re-injure the area....so that's what I'm trying to do!
Finally....my last treatment is tomorrow!!! Since I've had such a busy week, I haven't really had the opportunity to process this...but I woke up this morning in disbelief...I really can't believe it, as its become such a large part of my life! Of course, I am overwhelmed with excitement, as I'm sick of being sick. But there's also a tiny part of me that is a bit apprehensive. As, much as I hate hate hate chemo, at least I know that I am doing something to fight and kill any cancer cells that might be trying to grow. When I'm done, I'm on my own again....and my body has already failed me once on its own. So...there's that little bit of doubt in my mind..... (I am told by patients and survivors that this is a totally normal and common reaction) However, the excitement far outweighs the doubt!!!
So....I wish you all a Happy New Year! Have fun and be safe! And I thank you all for your kindeness and support which got me through 2007!
lots of love to you all!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Happy Holidays!
So...now the yuck of the 11th treatment! It was not fun! I've now experienced the bone pain of neulasta...and its pretty debilitating. Neulasta is the shot I get on Thursdays to boost my white blood cell production (therefore gives me an immune system). I also got a shot on Tuesday called darbopoetin to boost my red cell production (hgb-9), as I had met the criteria...aka, I was anemic enough. I actually was pretty sure that I would need the darbo...as I think I'm beginning to notice the difference between anemic tired, and normal tired. All day at work on Monday, my whole body was exhausted...not just my head. It's funny, sometimes my preceptor will check in with me saying that I look tired and encourage me to take a break...but my response will sometimes be..'no this is a good, normal tired'. Anyway...tangent...so I'm thinking maybe the combo of the two shots enhanced the pain.? (By the way...these are the two most painful shots ever created...I'm sure of it! The medicine burns as it goes in!...but...its only about 30 seconds which makes it tolerable).
Whew...I am scattered this morning...hope you're able to follow! Anyway..the bone pain is unlike anything I've really experienced. Most of my pain before could be pinpointed (usually to my head, as I've always had problems with headaches), but this was just a pain all over. It hurt to move, to be touched, I just ached all over. The acupuncture on Thursday didn't seem to help, rather it hurt too! Actually, it may have helped release some emotions, as I started to cry when I got home, and couldn't stop. I cried all through dinner, then my mom brought me to bed again and just sat with me as I slept. It was really rather pathetic! Don't worry, I've progressed since then. I've felt better each day (my movement increases by about a decade per day...Thursday, I moved like a 90 year old, Friday I was down to 80....) Today, I feel much better...and feel the need to stretch and walk to loosen up again!
Anyway...I guess I didn't feel the need to sugar-coat anything... I'm sure you've all had about enough sugar with all the holiday goodies! So...yes, #11 sucked...but it's over in time to really enjoy my Christmas...and that I'm am excited about!
So...again...Merry Christmas everyone!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Chemo still sucks...
Anyway....I have to go get my pump off in an hour...this is one of the low points in my week...so wish me luck! I then have an acupuncture appointment at 4pm... so hopefully that will help!
I apologize for all of the complaining...I thought that this treatment would fly by as its number 11!....but that just doesn't seem to be happening...therefore, I must complain!
Monday, December 17, 2007
The Holiday Spirit...
Oh...and we got more snow on Sunday......
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
2 days of relaxation...ahhhh
Then...what's better after being out in the cold, but to come home and take a hot bubble bath? I put in a good cd and just relaxed. Almost as good as the spa.
Finally, I spent the rest of the afternoon reading Eat, Pray, Love. Its an inspiring, fabulous read! I've just finished the Eat section....and really enjoyed it, as I can relate to her love of good food! Its one of my greatest pleasures too! (I hope the crohns doesn't mess with this!)
Today, I woke up early (okay...that wasn't one of the high points of the day, I must admit!) and went to see an acupuncturist. I have to admit, it was a bit wierd, and not necessarily pain free (but not painful either). But it put me in a fabulous mood! I had 'needles' in the strangest places: tops of ears, interior wrists, cheeks, fingers, toes, and shins. They were supposed to help with my TMJ from chemo, and stomach/GI issues I've had recently. We'll see how it works (TMJ was better at lunch). I plan to go back next Thursday, after I get my pump off. (This is usually a very hard time for me...so we'll see how it goes!)
I then spent some time shopping, had a yummy lunch with a friend, then came home for a short nap. Overall another good day!
I go back to work tomorrow...so no more 'me time' for a little while...but I'm pretty content with the two days that I've had...as most people don't get this opportunity frequently with the hustle and bustle of our busy lives.
Some pics to leave you with....
My Happy Feet.... :)
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Wanna procrastinate?
"My friends know what I'm going through, and they don't look away. That is a huge gift. It lets me be me. I don't have to worry about appearances when my body is demanding my energy and attention. After all, right now I have an excuse for falling asleep. In a few weeks, that may change. But their understanding of what I'm going through is priceless.
I'm a lucky man."
-- Leroy Sievers
Hope the holiday season is bringing you cheer!
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
10th Treatment in progress....
I really want to go out and play....but my neuropathies are really triggered by cold! For example, cold triggers my hands to be on pins and needles...and then not really work/bend. I do wear gloves for this around the house (to get in refridge, touch cold appliances, etc.) however...its really cold outside...I need to find my thick gloves before I venture out (however, that means going into my cold basement to go through boxes....so we'll see :) ) Also, my nose gets neuropathy too! When I'm outside it feels like somebody shot it up with novacaine, but when I touch it, it's all pins and needles too! Besides that... everything is just much colder to my flesh...it almost burns. However, after all this complaining....it is quite beautiful outside...so I may try to bundle up as much as possible (probably scare a few neighbors) and make it to the end of my road! I just want to enjoy it before the plow trucks make everything turn brown!
Anyway....back to my main purpose...10th treatment. I had a hard time making it to this one...basically because the side effects have been lasting longer, and I don't feel totally recuperated when its time for me to return. For example, my appetite was still very finicky, I still had bouts of nausea, etc. So, I regressed and protested getting out of bed (don't worry it was an internal protest...I didn't regress that much) I did make it out and to treatment right on time. Then when my doc asked how I was doing, my teary answer was "I'm done with this". I do know deep down that I'll keep going, however there are always low points along the way where I just want to quit! Anyway, my routine during chemo days are to go in, get my port accessed with labs drawn at the same time, then meet with the doctor. By the time this is done, my lab work is back, and if everything looks good enough for chemo, then I have to take a anti-nausea pill, then wait an hour for chemo. Well, taking this pill yesterday almost made me throw up. My stomach just seems to be rejecting pills right now. Luckily the massage therapist, Sharon, was there to help me through the stomach lurching, and I made it without throwing up that expensive pill! She then gave me a fabulous, long, back massage which, I believe was the turning point in my day. I think I finally relaxed, after being worked up all morning. I spent the rest of the morning looking for Christmas presents in magazines with my dad, visiting with nurses and staff, and napping. And....Sharon came back to give me a foot massage...which was wonderful because I had worked at 13.5 hour day on my feet on Monday!
When I met with my doctor yesterday, her main advice was to recommend that I take a leave from work for the next month-month and a half. This is because the toxicity from the chemo seems to continue to build in my body (ie. side effects lasting longer, and new side effects...palmer erythema/red palms, vision probs) I'm apprehensive about this for a couple of reasons. One, I don't think my job will allow it, as during hospital orientation, they stated that you had to be employed for 6 months prior to taking a leave...and I'm not there yet. Therefore, I don't know what would work for my insurance. So, I need to look into this. Second, I would go crazy spending all of my good days hanging around..I feel like I do that enough. It's okay if I have something to do...but most people work all day...and I can only Christmas shop so much. Plus, I do like my job, and think that it keeps me sane. So, I suppose I'll speak with my boss, and try to downsize hours again. I do know that 12 hour shifts are becoming too much for me, so that may be one change, and we'll see what else we can work out.
Well, I suppose thats it for now! I do have my last treatment date (can't remember if I shared yet)...But it's DECEMBER 31st!!! Out with the old and in with the new!
And, I'm starting to put into motion and Good Riddance Cancer/Fundraiser party for Feb or March. (I'm open to any good ideas from anyone!!!) I'll let you all know when I have a date!
Thanks for reading/listening! Take care everyone!
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Human Again
Thursday, November 22, 2007
ThanksGiving
So, here's a small list of what I am giving thanks for this year:
*My family~of course. When I was diagnosed, I thought that I could do this by myself...I was still debating moving across the country. How wrong I was! There's no way I could make it through this without their support and them literally taking care of me and waiting on me hand and foot. I have dinner waiting for me after 12 hour shifts of work...(which is probably the only reason that I eat at those times, because I'm so tired!) and I haven't really looked at my bills, as they stress me out so much, my dad is taking care of them for the time being....need I say more! They're the best!
*My original doctor who took me seriously, fit my appointment into a tight schedule (I was moving), and comforted me by using humor and kindness when I was diagnosed,
*My friends who showed up at my door 5 minutes after I told them the news. They swept me away and helped me to plan my next few days. (I was due to move the next day and was sitting in an empty apartment)
*My friends who gathered the next day to bring me to my CT scan, help finish cleaning my apartment, and moved the rest of my stuff into their houses until we had a better plan, and then brought me to the airport so I could be home with my family.
*My friends who let my mom and I stay in their apartment while going to many doctors appointments at Hopkins, and who were most hospitable!
*The insurance coordinator at JHU who worked with me for months, and was my go-to girl when I couldn't get an appointment or had any sort of questions...she always figured it out for me..with a positive attitude...an was a huge support when I coulnd't think!
*All of my visitors after my surgery at Hopkins. I think there were about 30 of you who made my stay almost fun (with the help of the PCA!) I met a ton of great people at school and through working at Hopkins, and am just so grateful! (ps...I missed the ball on the thank you cards to all of you...I started, then realized too many addresses were changing at the time!...but please know that I THANK YOU).
*My old apartment manager, who gave us a deal on renting apartments for my family and me following surgery, and during my recovery period.
*My friends at home, who immediately took me back in and helped to ease the transition back home. I am grateful for all of the weekly dinners over the summer and for all of the wonderful and understanding listening ears you've provided.
*Ok...I haven't been using names..but this is my one exception. My friend Deanna, who has been right by my side through this all. She and her husband started off by selling bracelets as a fundraiser for me, and she's been incredibly supportive ever since. She is always checking in and accompanying me on small adventures. She is very intuitive to know when enough is enough for me...and makes it okay. She's just great!
*My job...when I moved home and needed insurance...I thought...'who would hire me?'...so I applied on an oncology floor, as I figured they would be the most likely to understand... and I was right! My preceptors are fabulous, and are constantly checking in with me to see how I'm doing. My managers are the same. They have made it so I only schedule myself for 2 weeks at a time, as my chemo schedule sometimes changes, or my healing process is delayed. And, I found out this weekend that my manager emailed my coworkers, asking them to donate any extra time off to me. How kind is that?
*My job...again..as it gives me another focus. It's much easier for me to worry about other people than it is to worry about myself!
*All of my friends that have made trips up or over to visit me! Its always good to see old friends, but sometimes its hard to find a time to do so...so I really appreciate that you were able to do so. Plus, its also a good distraction.
*On that note, all of my friends who have tried to come and visit, who I've denied due to being too sick. Thank you for understanding that I want to show you VT when I feel good enough to get out of bed!
*My oncology nurses and doctors who are taking good care of me! I always feel bad because I have this terrible connection in my mind with the oncology clinic, however the people there are wonderful! My nurses frequently go out of their way to find me answers and make me comfortable. One of my nurses even gave me a card for being 3/4 done the other day!
*My support group and therapist...who give me a great perspective and ongoing, nonjudgemental support.
*My friends far and near...who give me and my family continual support through calls, emails, snail mail, texts, blog messages etc. I usually get a card every day, some from people that I don't know....and it really makes all the difference. It's really the small showings of support that mean the world and make this crap bearable!!
*And finally my extended family who have pulled together to show their support in many ways (through visits with long talks and massages, cards, prayers, calls, emails, thoughtful gifts, and giving me something to look forward to in my down times -cruise planning-)
Now...I know that there are many more things that need to be added to my list...but it's almost time to eat! So, please know that I am grateful to you all for reading my blog!
Happy Thanksgiving!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Date Day
Things here are looking up. In fact, today I put on real clothes (rather than sweats or scrubs) and took myself out on a date! I went to the movies by myself...and it was kinda fun! When I was younger, I always felt bad for people who were at the movies by themself (and people eating in the lunchroom by themselves)...but it was liberating and I'll definitely do it again! I mean how much talking goes on in the theater anyway?! I splurged on popcorn and a soda (we'll see later how the popcorn likes the ol' colon)... and watched Gone Baby Gone! I highly recommend it if you like a good mystery and a HUGE ethical dilemma (Beware...its a Boston movie...so there are a ton of F-bombs dropped).
That's really all I have to share at the moment...just wanted to recommend a good movie, because there are so many bad ones out there!
Warm thoughts to you!
Sunday, November 11, 2007
How I spent my week...
Friday, November 9, 2007
Bored and Lazy
(I did just get off the phone with my insurance company...as they enjoyed informing me that acupuncture is not covered in my plan...bummer..so I suppose that was productive, as its a question that I've had for weeks.) Anyway, I'm now laying in bed, procrastinating getting up, even though I've been awake for hours. This is partially because I'm scared of any smells that I might encounter throughout my house (I'm currently not nauseous in my room). This is also partially because I know what's waiting for me downstairs....pills and a shot! My avoidance skills are great...until the guilt kicks in....
My 8th treatment is now done. Starting the count-down. Which makes me wonder what my life will be like when this is all over. It's pretty much been my sole focus for 6 months now...what will I be without it? Don't get me wrong... I'm starting to think up a 'Good Riddance' party...it's just that I need this craziness to have some purpose in my life, in order for it to make any sense to me.
But thats all getting ahead of myself...as I have 4 more full treatments left...and the continual side-effects from this last one.
This treatment has been okay. It continues to get more difficult for me to walk into the clinic...we've had to get rather creative to try to trick me. The person who drives and accompanies me to an appointment now drops me off at the front door...so I don't have to deal with parking garage odors. I also have used candles, car air freshners, and other smellies to help with clinic smells. Hospital tape is one of the worst smells for me, so we've started using tegaderm dressings over my port, rather than the tape that comes in the pre-packaged kit. Really...just doing anything that will help in the moment!
Anyway...besides all of this...the treatment has been pretty much the same. I went to my second support group this week...which I'm still happy with my decision to join it. I also continue to be in love with my psychologist, who I try to see once a week. I'm also trying to start incorporating yoga in at least weekly. I'm still going to look into acupuncture...as I've heard great things from other survivors. These are my plans for gaining a little control over my mental/physical health.
So....I thought I'd leave you with a list of medications that I received on Tuesday(random, I know). I was thinking about it the other night when I was falling asleep...and I put a lot of foreign products into my body that day! This is a change for me...as I used to protest taking one pill for a headache. And...this is the minimum of what I had to take....I don't usually take extras..or prns...
Infusions:
Oxaliplatin (chemo)
5 fu (chemo)
leukovorin (part of chemo regimen)
magnesium (to help prevent peripheral neuropathies...not working)
calcium (same as mag)
dexamethasone (steroid..premed for chemo..helps with nausea)
aloxi (nausea med)
Injections:
Innohep SC (for clot)
Lupron IM (for menopause)
Pills:
Emend (nausea)
Asacol (12! for colitis...inflammation in colon)
Ativan (to chill me out..and nausea)
Okay...that's enough procrastination for now...(pills...here I come). Again, thank you to everyone for all of your support! I just feel like I can't say that enough!
Monday, November 5, 2007
Colonoscopy and Halloween Goofiness
On a brighter note.... I went to a fun halloween party on Saturday night... so I thought that I'd share some pics...
Not sure I'd let her get near me!
Yea Sox!
Friday, November 2, 2007
Inspiration
I have some crazy friends who like to wake up in the middle of the night to go hiking. Here is one of their recent pictures of a sunrise hike up camel's hump....
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Early morning thoughts
Yesterday was a pretty okay day. I woke up feeling great and excited, as I had plans and things on the agenda that I wanted to do, and I felt good! So, after being awake for an hour or two, I took a shower to get ready to go to a craft show. Unfortunately, the shower wore me out! I was completely out of breath and just exhausted! (I think this had to do partially with my anemia...don't worry, I'll get a shot soon for that too) Of course this pissed me off...and I was tired and crabby for the morning...then had to skip my afternoon plans to lay on the couch. However, I did watch the travel chanel for 4 straight hours...so if anyone has plans to go to the beach in Florida, Mexico, the Carribean...or perhaps buy a private island...I'm the girl you need to talk to! I then went to a friend's house for the evening to watch Crazy, Sexy Cancer, which she had Tivo'd for me. It was inspirational...and it felt good to be out of the house...so the day ended well!
That's really all I have right now...just thought I'd share to pass the time...
Hope you enjoy your Sunday!
Friday, October 26, 2007
7th...done
The nausea this time has been okay. I trying really hard not to think about it and deep breathing when I do....it actually seems to be working! The only time it didn't work was getting my pump off yesterday...the smells in the clinic just push me over the edge! I pretty much ran out of there and had my dad pick me up at the front entrance where there was fresh air (as opposed to that stinky parking garage air)...but I made it! (Tuesday wasn't so successful...as I threw up while getting treatment...caught a taste of the 5-fu push...I can really taste everything through my port...its so gross)
Okay...changing the subject....I went to a young survivors support group on Wed evening...and I actually enjoyed myself. Again, I was hesitant to go...but the people were very cool and welcoming. There were only 5 of us there, all with different types of cancer...and 3 were in remission! It was really great to talk with people who have had similar experiences...very refreshing! Its funny, I've always thought that I would be the person who would sit back and listen in that type of environment, but I couldn't stop talking! Almost everything that people brought up, I could relate to, and wanted to share! So...I'll definitely go back!
Final new thing...these peripheral neuropathies are getting to me. Basically my fingers feel like they're on pins and needles, and I sometimes have trouble bending them at the joints. I haven't figured out what triggers them yet (might be cold?)...but I'm on the case. Next treatment, they will give me some calcium and magnesium IV which will hopefully help! As...who wants a nurse who is dropping crap because she can't feel her fingers?!
That's all for now! Please let me know if you have any questions or topics for me to write about...as I'm running out of ideas..and am very open to suggestions!
Take care!
Friday, October 19, 2007
Better...
Its nice to be back!
I also met with a psychologist today. I have to say, I'm sorry that I put it off so long! All the books say to find someone right away...but I guess I didn't think that I needed it. I was wrong! She was great, and also a cancer survivor, and I just really valued her perspective and opinion. We spent some time discussing techniques to use regarding my anticipatory nausea...and its funny, but it all seemed like common sense. Breathing techniques, relaxation, meditation, visualization, aromatherapy, monitoring my pulse and consciously bringing it down, etc. All things that are kind of pushed aside in modern medicine while searching for a pill to provide a quick fix. These are all things that I've tried in the moments that I don't feel good...but she reminded me that, like all things, you need to practice, practice, practice for it to work! Its also funny that I just needed someone to tell me to do it. Now that I've been told (by someone who has had success with these techniques in the past)... I'll do it! (hum....maybe she can analyze that next week?!)
So...that's all that's new on this front! I'm working 3 12-hour shifts in the next 3 days...so I will be in my own working world until I go back to chemo next Tuesday. Haven't really been there in 2 weeks, so it will be good to be back!
I hope everyone is able to enjoy their weekends! Take care!
ps...sorry no pics this time...camera hasn't been out!
Monday, October 15, 2007
Sick Day...
This last treatment was a hard one, in many ways. I had expected to be happy and relieved to hit my 1/2 way point (I've always felt that the second half of things is easier and have had that 'its all downhill' mentality). However, I currently do not feel this way. In fact, I feel the complete opposite ('How am I going to make it through 6 more!')
I suppose this was also a difficult week because I let new feelings officially enter (warning: therapeutic purge about to happen!) For the first time, I felt sorry for myself and scared. These are emotions that I've let skirt around the sidelines for awhile, but once they entered, they became sort of all consuming. They made it easy for me to spend three full days curled in the fetal position in bed, with my sole focus being on how lousy I felt.
This brings me to the topic of attitude. There are some theorists that say that attitude has everything to do with a cancer prognosis. Part of me wants to say that's BS, theorized by someone who has never had to deal with the day to day struggles of cancer! From my experience in nursing, I've witnessed people with great attitudes who have passed away at terrible times in their lives. On the other hand, there is definitely a part of me who believes that attitude plays a part in the healing process. I mainly think this because attitude is the only thing that we (we being those who are sick) can control. When your own body is out of your control...you have to at least control your mind! And, trust me, this is a hard thing to do, especially when you don't feel good! So...I'm taking today for a little attitude adjustment. I'm going to get some fresh air (my instant feel better trigger) and get my life back in order! (this includes returning many phone calls!!! sorry!)
Okay...now that I've purged a little, maybe I'll be able to get some sleep tonight!
On a positive note...there were some high points to my weekend!
First, is my great friend Deanna. She brought me to get my pump off on Thursday, and had to wait with me two extra hours while I got extra fluids. She had the 'fun' task of trying to distract me for those hours so I wouldn't throw up...it was a success!
Second, I was able to spend a couple of hours on Saturday with one of my oldest friends, as she was 'home' for the weekend (though she acted more like a tourist!) She waited on me and dealt with my crankiness and feeling gross (thanks Kris!)
Third, it was a weekend of good quality family time, as my brother was home from Boston. We went to my other brother's last home soccer game (where I got an Essex Alumni pin because it was homecoming weekend....all you ex-hornets are jealous, I know!) and we went out to a great dinner!
Finally, I received the most beautiful, thoughtful gift in the mail that I must share it with you! My mom's cousin's wife made me the most gorgeous quilt....I'm in love with it! I'm having the internal struggle whether to bring it with me everywhere (like Linus), or keep it protected from dirt and possible stains by keeping it on my bed, away from dirty hands! Ahhh...the decisions! Thank you Karen!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
29th Birthday...in the chair
Unfortunately, though, the side effects seemed to come into effect much quicker this time around. I've felt pretty lousy since I got home yesterday... so I've spent most of my time in bed or on the couch. I have watched some funny movies though! (Knocked Up was great!)
A new side effect I've noticed is the peripheral neuropathies (my fingers tingle intermittently when I try to use them...feels like pins and needles) I've also realized that the smell of the dressing tape over my port makes me nauseous...so I try not to smell it (its just so damn close to my nose! Arg!) I did speek with a psychologist yesterday who I am going to start meeting with to work on my anticipatory nausea. She spoke of starting some biofeedback and visualization therapy. I'll let you know how it goes!
Here's a pic of my massage and flatbread...yum!
I was able to enjoy and celebrate my birthday early, as I went to the best restaurant with a group of girlfriends on Sat. night! If you are ever near Vergennes, VT you must try the Black Sheep Bistro! I'm still craving the pumpkin curry bisque...and I don't even have an appetite right now! We celebrated the right way with good companty, food, dessert, and a champagne toast! Thanks friends! I had a great time!
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Autumn in VT
Just wanted to share some pics of how I spent my day, as it was another beautiful fall day here! (it makes it very hard to get sleep...as I want to be out and about!)
I go back in for treatment on Tuesday...my 1/2 way point...yahoo! I'll write more then....
For now, enjoy the scenery!
A deer? made of corn at this little organic farm
Applefest!
Monday, October 1, 2007
Highs and Lows
My friend Tracy enjoys the yummy fried treats at the harvest market...
Apple Pickin' Fun...
Take care everyone!
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
The Mysterious Port...
Here is my beautiful port, unaccessed...
It's really not so pretty...I had some problems with the incision healing...turns out there was a stitch that wouldn't dissolve that was causing all the trouble...so now its healed, but still not so pretty...
Prior to going to chemo and getting accessed, I put Emla cream on. This numbs the area so it won't hurt when the needle goes in...Its wonderful stuff...
Here I am, accessed. Once the needle is in, they can draw blood out, and put medicine in. This is why the port is handy....only one stick. I'm looking away because I'm not allowed to breathe on it before a dressing is placed, this keeps germs away!
Hooked up to my pre-meds... (anti-nausea meds)...and chatting on the phone..
Putting my pump into my fanny...
Thats all! And to finish up...here's a pic of my cancer...Hard to see, but it penetrates the whole bowel wall.
So far, the fifth treatment is going well! It helps to have my aunt here distracting me! We shopped a little yesterday (love shopping therapy!), and today we took a long drive and enjoyed the beautiful autumn scenery! Vermont is starting to become even more beautiful! We stopped for a yummy apple cider donut, and window shopped at some craft stores in Stowe! Overall, good day out, which was topped off with a great long nap!